Tips from Dr Love here😝

Sometimes we learn from so many different and unexpected sources..The bottom line, we learn..

I consider myself very outspoken and i hope the day i die, it will be said, she lived to the maximum, she loved and showed love, she listened and learned, she tried to be Dr Love (This one didn’t work though).. hopefully they also include she also slept enough.
Seriously I have been learning stuff on relationships from older friends and one thing is very consistent in what they tell me ‘unless you have tried your best, don’t let it go..’ You know why? To avoid a repeat of that mistake and a life of ‘what if and maybe..’

According to ‘her majesty’ T and ‘her highness’ M, you gotta give your best shot. If you love say it, if you want them, say it and show it.. Don’t ever move on to the next one without finishing up with the last one.. If there is any single doubt in your head, don’t take your shit to the next person… It might end up in regrets and wishing that you tried harder..

As i was watching ‘Being Mary Jane’, i watched a 60 year old woman go back to some love she didn’t pursue. It made her feel alive… It made her think that she settled for the boring one.. Well… she ends up divorced from someone who really loves her and alienated from her kids.. It is sad and of course stupid but i somehow get it… The ‘What ifs’…

I have learned that you gotta heal yourself first, clear all doubts and move on.. You can always say, i gave it my best shot. I would say love is a choice.. Staying in love with one person is a choice.. There will always be others.. prettier, richer.. kinder.. Chose your mad man or mad woman and stay with them..

Take note to walk away when unwanted or disrespected.. Or ignored even when showing all that love and effort.

I hope nobody who reads this shall give up a good thing as a result of pride.. I also hope nobody starts a new relationship without clearing all doubts about the old one… I hope absolutely nobody loses a good thing because of pride or temporary shit like cheating… Finally i hope you are all staying safe..πŸ’‹

always winnie..

A.M Thoughts

10 minutes to 4 a.m.

Sometimes i imagine that my boobs are itchy.. Or my head if full of crap.. Maybe the latter. Definitely the latter. Or maybe, the Chinese taking over..

The number of pregnant teens in this country is alarming. Babies are having sex and they are gonna have babies.. In this shitty economy. I want to blame the parents but then i have been a teen before.. I might have matured a bit slower but i was still a teen. The hormones were supposedly there but the environment was not as conducive then as it is now.Smartphones were not a thing and musicians had brains.

As i lie here, I imagine the different scenerios that are going to arise when we hit the grassroots with the idea that their kids need to learn about safe sex rather than sticking to abstinence alone. I can imagine women going crazy over how we are going to educate their kids on bad manners. I can almost picture them in the streets asking for us to be kicked out… I really can’t wait..

It is hilarious to imagine them pray when we tell their kids about condoms… I just pray that they won’t think of stoning us up…

Enjoy your Friday and keep safe.

4 am thoughts

Some few minutes to 4. I crave 2 things.. One is ginger tea.. The other is out of reach.. I am out of processed ginger so am settling to just grating some..

My thoughts are as clear as they can be and for once, i try to redirect them to a few positive things that i have seen happen in this country from the people to the people..

Yesterday, they aired a story on people whose houses were demolished and Kenyans went ahead to ask for numbers to reach out to that woman sleeping out in the cold with her kids.. This is not the only positive thing…. While corrupt and selfish people are fattening themselves with the food meant to help the needy, there are those digging into their pockets to help.

My friend for instance… I told him we would need to reach out.. He reminds me to remind him when we are visiting and it awes me every time… Then of course there are so many people that are just willing to give that it depresses me not one of them wants to vie for any leadership seats..

Finally there is my woman crush who reaches out to battered women.. who does whatever she can to help those suffering in the hands of those who should be loving them.. She does need funding but you will not hear her complain… Some people deserve too much respect..

Anyway, before my thoughts slip back into negativity, i will just try to catch some sleep. One day i will tell the world that the positivity in this country surpasses the negativity, but as of now, we are too far from home..

Keep safe.

For you

Every day i stare at your photo and think about you..
The sound of your voice.. Your laughter.. How your tone changes.. From teasing to seriousness.. How you laughter drags out mine… How you say my name.. How you tease and mock me.. And above all, how you care for me…

So many times have you left me wondering what i would do for you.. I can’t come up with anything that is good enough..

Thank you for being solid.. Thank you for laughing with me and at me.. Thank you for caring in a way that nobody did..

😘😍

These times

9.00 pm
I am definitely not asleep and i am sure am not going to be falling asleep any time soon.. My brain has decided thus year’s sleep limit has been exceeded and it is annoying.. My troubles are nothing though…

I am on the floor trying some stretching moves i watched and well… not so seriously.. My two friends are stretched on my bed talking and making fun of how am doing my ‘yoga’.. My phone lights up with a notification and i roll my eyes. People are too idle right now..

Opening up the message however shuts me down.Somewhere in Nairobi, a mother has abandoned her two kids who are highly malnutritioned.. I stare at the article and pass my phone to my friend.. This shit is getting harder and with restrictions extended for another 21 days, i dunno what will happen. The fact that we have reached out to a few people to help won’t be working soon because i know almost everyone is strained for resources.. I don’t know exactly how to just sit here and not to think about it.. Yet, i don’t know how to reach out…

I just hope that these times will pass soon and we will be out there trying to figure out why China thinks that they should increase their military presence in Africa.. I wish this was our main concern right now…

I also hope we are all keeping safe and sane.. I hope we are being as kind as we can be to those around us.. These times will pass and see you on the safer side.. 😘

The greatest of these

7:03 am
I am up for no apparent reason.. Today we will be going to reach out to a family or two but i don’t feel elated as i should feel.. On the contrary, i feel defeated. We are losing a battle that we never had a chance of winning even before we started it… Yet, we started it.

Most Kenyans live from hand to mouth literally.. The effect of the curfew, businesses closing, restricted movement and social distancing will probably have more people on their knees even before corona virus does.. This shit is depressing as hell.. What is even more depressing is the gap that exists amongst Kenyans.. Some people don’t understand how others are suffering… The government got no clue whatsoever on the intensity of this…

I want to just get on top of my bed and close my eyes and assume all is well.. I log into my twitter account and all hope is gone.. Kenyatta National Hospital is on the spotlight again for negligence.. This isn’t the first case..Only this time, they didn’t ignore the child of a lesser god.. They apparently ignored one of the most brilliant minds in the country… I don’t know what the uproar is about because this isn’t new… Yet, the uproar is just there… I scroll past that and get to killings..

As if these problems are not enough, the exists a bunch of drunkards that were driven away in an ambulance while those who needed that ambulance couldn’t access it..

I want to feel the love for this country.. I want to feel the love in this country.. I want to read about the love in this country.. Yet, I am here feeling drained.. The only thing that keeps me going is hope.. Hope after my friend says he wants to adopt a family to care for.. Hope after a group of friends pool a bit of foodstuffs to cater for a few families.. Love is miserably failing me.. Yet it is supposed to be the greatest of all.. I always thought the greatest had the greatest impact..

Right now all i can do is hope that there are people out there doing more and more.. All i can do is hope that humanity does not go down the drain.. Hopefully, the next batch of people in our offices will do better than this.. I hope the rampant acts against human beings will reduce…

I just hope that i will not tire of hoping.. If hope fails me, i have nothing else to hold unto..

Do i hope you all are keeping safe and being kind to those around you? Stretch your arms as far as they can go and help out as much as you can..

Be kind to one another

Ellen always says this and it sounds simple.. Most times we give when we have excess and it is like human nature to hold on to more and more… We should try harder.

Every time i want to hold onto anything i have, i remember this one time, it was on Christmas. We were hard pressed. My mum and her 8 kids.. Not enough food.. Unluckily, the people around tend to say that they are praying for you whereas they could pray and share.. They do the work halfway..

So, my eldest brother was barely 12 or so.. with the rest of us.. None could do anything to help.. Not even the church that is commanded so.. It passed until two women came by.. They didnt have much but i do remember we cried.. It meant the world to us…

Don’t feel bad for me, we got through it… Be kind enough to extend even a kilo of rice to those hard hit during this time.. Don’t just pray for them.. Will you be more action than words? It makes the whole difference to someone.. Please be kind to one another and take care.

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